There have absolutely been lots of highs but overall, Ace has had a really difficult year at school. I’m ready for it to be over. But the school year coming to a close won’t fix things. He’ll have to go back there in September.
I’m not sure why but as the school year comes to an end, his behaviour seems to be getting more and more unmanageable for his teachers. CC says his daily report looks like a bag of skittles. Yellows and Blues and Reds. All meaning that he didn’t have a good day. Blues and Reds being the absolute worst. We’re not seeing these extreme behaviours at home but everyday we get reports of him having to sit and eat lunch with his teachers instead of with his friends because he’s in punishment. We hear that they have been practicing for graduation next week and he is very disruptive. Falling off his chair, talking, rolling around on the floor etc. He’s extra silly all the time. They have to physically remove him from the group and put him to stand off to the side just so the other children can get through their routines. Yesterday the news came that they may take him out of the graduation play all together because he simply will not pay attention or listen or follow instructions and he’s very distracting to the other children.
I feel completely out of my league in dealing with this. I want to do something to make him stop. I want to tell him something that will make him “get it”. I want to punish and threaten him into sitting still. I want to hug him and have him tell me why he does these things so that I can do something to help him. I want him to be happy but I also want him to conduct himself appropriately and I want his teachers to see the same boy that I see. I don’t want my kid to be the bad kid in the class. I don’t want to go to the graduation ceremony and watch everyone elses kid perform while mine sits it out.
CC thinks the bottom line is that Ace has no fear (respect) for his teachers so he thinks he can do anything he wants. They are very nice so when they give him an inch he takes 3 miles. CC completely rules out that Ace’s ADHD has anything to do with his behaviour at school. He thinks Ace knows exactly what he’s doing and he just thinks it’s funny to be the class clown.
I worry that there’s more to it than that.
I’m so confused. I’m worried. I’m tired. I’m a little embarrassed that the teachers keep having to have these conversations with us and all we can say is “we don’t know what to tell you.” I’m mad at myself that I don’t feel strong and empowered and that all I can see is that it won’t be much longer before we’re doing medication trials and errors on my sweet little boy. I don’t know what to do. I feel like I’m failing him.