I haven’t been doing a good job of keeping in touch with my family or friends.
I haven’t been as supportive as I should be when people reach out to me in need of a shoulder.
I haven’t taken the time to be extra nice to someone who I can see really needs some attention or a comforting word.
I am really having a tough time not comparing problems and stresses. It doesn’t matter if I am at home or at work or reading Facebook statuses. I keep telling myself that “problem having” is not a competitive sport. I know I don’t have it the worst – even if it feels that way among people I know. It doesn’t do me any good when someone tells me of a difficult time they are having by thinking “That’s not even that bad.” or “I wish that was all I had to worry about.” or “You don’t know how easy you have it.” or “What about MY problems?” When I see people getting help, it’s not my place to think “I need help more than they do.”
What gives me the audacity to feel so entitled?
I’m aware that I am not being the best version of myself. I want to be better. I am trying to be better. When the bad thoughts come up, I immediately recognize them for what they are and try to redirect my brain.
Today, that’s all I’ve got.